It’s time for a little heart to heart conversation between me and you. I’ve hinted at it in recent posts, but I thought it would be best to really share what’s been going on. Times have been hard with autism lately. That big bad wolf has seriously reared it’s ugly head. The last time Ashley had tantrums this bad was four years ago. Four years ago. Only now the tantrums include throwing and breaking glass, whereas back then it was more like non-stop screaming.
We recently switched to Agape after some of you suggested it (thank you!) and I do see an improvement, but we still have a ways to go. It’s going to take time, but I believe that Agape is one of those things that is going to help us get there. Another friend of mine suggested Bioplasma, and we added that too. Have you used it?
As my neighbors will tell you, lately I’ve been spending most of my days walking around outside with Ashley and Ginger. There are two things that calm Ashley and put an end to her fits—Riding in the car and walking around outside. So that’s what I’ve been doing. A lot.
The other thing that Ashley loves, as you may know, is therapeutic horseback riding. Ashley had the best ever classes these past two weeks. So thankful for how much she communicated and had a blast. My wish for Ashley is that she could always feel as good as she does when she is on a horse. Someday I hope to have a little house on an acre of land so that I can get Ashley a horse, and a greyhound dog, and some chickens.
Meanwhile, the best I can do for her (and for all of us) is simplify our life as much as possible. If you’ve ever seen this video (above) of the girls from a few years ago, then you know how tiny our house is. But it’s crazy how much we have filled it up! The closets and drawers have been brimming over. And lately I wonder, “What is all this stuff?” There are drawers and cabinets in the kitchen that I look at and I say to myself, “I don’t remember the last time I used anything in there.”
So whenever possible we have been collecting things that we don’t use and donating them. What is it about living with less that makes me feel so much lighter?
In relation to food: I’ve been making double batches of my pancake batter so I can put half in the fridge for the next day. I’ve been making lots of salads for lunch (with dressings from my light pink cookbook).
Also, I’m really into homemade chicken stock right now. I put the whole chicken in the pot, and use Ali’s recipe for making stock. When the breast is cooked and I’ve picked off all the meat I put the bones back in the water and keep going with the lid off, barely simmering, refilling the water frequently (Alton Brown says this brings out the most gelatin).
On day one we eat the chicken breast. On day two I use the stock with my dumpling recipe, and just throw in whatever greens and veggies come in my box. I use the crock pot and cook it slowly, until the veggies are just tender. It’s enough stock for all of us to eat soup for a couple days.
And what could be more comforting to eat than soup? : ) ♥, Kelly